I know the title sounds emo as fuck, but I'll explain it and hopefully it loses it's emo..ness?
Since somewhere around 7 pm tonight I have had my eyes water up constantly. It almost feels like my body wants me to cry, but I don't feel like I have anything to cry over at all. Now, I've narrowed this down to three options:
1. The pain I have in my ear is forcing my body to react differently to how I actually feel about it.
2. I am just more tired than I think I am and thus my eyes gets watery.
3. I am having one of those weird fucking reactions to something that has happened where my mind is depressed as fuck, but I don't feel it untill later on, where it hits me like a fucking freight train to the face.
Now, I think the most logical would be #2, and #1 is the second most logical, #3 only happens in extreme situations when there's been something serious going on around me (death in the family, death of a friend, someone close to me being seriously injured/sick etc).
But I seem to get this sometimes, and I just can't explain how or why. Anyone that have an answer to this? I usually only get it during the evenings for a few hours, then it stops, and it lasts for a little over a week, then goes away for a few months.
Well, hopefully that explained the emoness a bit.
Sign...
...Actually, you have to listen to this first:
Atticus Ross - Panoramic (Main theme of 'Book of Eli')
That song has slammed into my top 3 movie themes of all time, and I can't put my finger on why.
Without further adue:
Signed, Exxy
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Fuck you, hangovers!
This is gonna be a shorter blogpost than usual, but that's because the title says it all. I am so god damn hung over from yesterday. I was bartending for me, Niclas and Holmström when drinking yesterday, and after trying a variety of drinks, I got this major hangover.
The good thing to come out of it was that I figured out a thing about myself. If I really want to learn something, I can learn it quite easily. But apart from that, the night was quite MEH after we left Niclas' place. I won't go into details, but it ended differently than me and Holmström hoped I guess.
But yes, hangovers. Fuck them...
...who the fuck am I kidding? I totally deserve this after last night.
I'm gonna head off and continue my headaches, feeling ill and mindless droning.
Signed,
Exxy...
...ugh.
Oh yeah, as a bonus, a picture from last night:
The good thing to come out of it was that I figured out a thing about myself. If I really want to learn something, I can learn it quite easily. But apart from that, the night was quite MEH after we left Niclas' place. I won't go into details, but it ended differently than me and Holmström hoped I guess.
But yes, hangovers. Fuck them...
...who the fuck am I kidding? I totally deserve this after last night.
I'm gonna head off and continue my headaches, feeling ill and mindless droning.
Signed,
Exxy...
...ugh.
Oh yeah, as a bonus, a picture from last night:
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
People, you need sampled music in your life.
Let me start off by telling you what sampling is if you are not familiar with it:
Sampling is where you take a snippet of sound and use it for something else. This is mostly common in hip-hop and drum'n'bass. This is a technique that I personally have fallen in love with over the years, just because people are so god damn creative with their sampling sometimes. So today, I will link you some of my favourite sample-based songs.
Hip-hop:
I will start this one off with a song that an old friend of mine used in one of his movies about Snowblading/Snowboarding. The song is called "Children sing", and that is exactly what the sample is. It's children singing, sampled into a hip-hop beat. Have a listen and learn to love (Also, shameless plug to Claes and his White Label Entertainment for fucking awesome movies that deserves a watch).
Peace Won and Mr. Green - Children sing
The second song I want you to have a listen to is "Spaz out" by Army of the pharaohs. This song takes the main theme from Gladiator and make a hip-hop beat based on it. The lyrics might not be the best I've heard, but the beat is so fucking well made that it deserves a listen.
Army of the pharaohs - Spaz out
The last hip-hop song I will link you today is "Hits from the bong" by Cypress hill. This song uses a guitar sample from "Son of a preacher man" and makes the song so much more enjoyable. I have always loved Cypress hill, but this song is just so special due to that sample. Give it a listen, and just love it!
Cypress hill - Hits from the bong
Drum'n'Bass:
I will start drum'n'bass with what could be the BEST drum'n'bass song ever created: "Beautiful Lies" by B-Complex. This song samples a woman singing into a beautiful yet fast paced song that just makes me so relaxed every time I listen to it. Give it a listen and love it.
B-Complex - Beautiful lies
Second one will also be from B-Complex, this time "It's a funny world". In this song he samples the shit out of a AWESOME paino string and uses it so fucking well. The entire song is fast paced, loveable and the sample is just so awesome. Give it a listen and fall even more in love with B-Complex as an artist.
B-Complex - It's a funny world
Other:
I didn't want to place this one under drum'n'bass, nor hip-hop, because it is something of it's own. The entire song is just based of samples, and I fucking love every second of it. The song is called "Reflected in..." by Micha feat Drut. I heard it in a CSS fragmovie and couldn't stop listening to it once I got a hold of it. Just give it a listen and you will understand what I mean.
Micha feat Drut - Reflected in...
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This is just SOME of the sampled music I love, but give them all a listen and you'll understand why you need it in your life. If you feel you don't need it, a simple daily dose of Vitamin C will suffice.
Signed,
Exxy a.k.a Sample-o-holic.
Sampling is where you take a snippet of sound and use it for something else. This is mostly common in hip-hop and drum'n'bass. This is a technique that I personally have fallen in love with over the years, just because people are so god damn creative with their sampling sometimes. So today, I will link you some of my favourite sample-based songs.
Hip-hop:
I will start this one off with a song that an old friend of mine used in one of his movies about Snowblading/Snowboarding. The song is called "Children sing", and that is exactly what the sample is. It's children singing, sampled into a hip-hop beat. Have a listen and learn to love (Also, shameless plug to Claes and his White Label Entertainment for fucking awesome movies that deserves a watch).
Peace Won and Mr. Green - Children sing
The second song I want you to have a listen to is "Spaz out" by Army of the pharaohs. This song takes the main theme from Gladiator and make a hip-hop beat based on it. The lyrics might not be the best I've heard, but the beat is so fucking well made that it deserves a listen.
Army of the pharaohs - Spaz out
The last hip-hop song I will link you today is "Hits from the bong" by Cypress hill. This song uses a guitar sample from "Son of a preacher man" and makes the song so much more enjoyable. I have always loved Cypress hill, but this song is just so special due to that sample. Give it a listen, and just love it!
Cypress hill - Hits from the bong
Drum'n'Bass:
I will start drum'n'bass with what could be the BEST drum'n'bass song ever created: "Beautiful Lies" by B-Complex. This song samples a woman singing into a beautiful yet fast paced song that just makes me so relaxed every time I listen to it. Give it a listen and love it.
B-Complex - Beautiful lies
Second one will also be from B-Complex, this time "It's a funny world". In this song he samples the shit out of a AWESOME paino string and uses it so fucking well. The entire song is fast paced, loveable and the sample is just so awesome. Give it a listen and fall even more in love with B-Complex as an artist.
B-Complex - It's a funny world
Other:
I didn't want to place this one under drum'n'bass, nor hip-hop, because it is something of it's own. The entire song is just based of samples, and I fucking love every second of it. The song is called "Reflected in..." by Micha feat Drut. I heard it in a CSS fragmovie and couldn't stop listening to it once I got a hold of it. Just give it a listen and you will understand what I mean.
Micha feat Drut - Reflected in...
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This is just SOME of the sampled music I love, but give them all a listen and you'll understand why you need it in your life. If you feel you don't need it, a simple daily dose of Vitamin C will suffice.
Signed,
Exxy a.k.a Sample-o-holic.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Bruce.
Bruce is a cool guy. Everyone should love Bruce. More specifically; Everyone should love Support Tech Bruce at the Steam Support, for he gave me my steam account back!
No but on a serious note, I got my steam account back and I finally feel like I have a social life again, yay! This was just a random happy post to motivate me to do the post following this one; the glorious entry of "People, you need X in your life!". So look forward to that.
Signed, Exxy :3
No but on a serious note, I got my steam account back and I finally feel like I have a social life again, yay! This was just a random happy post to motivate me to do the post following this one; the glorious entry of "People, you need X in your life!". So look forward to that.
Signed, Exxy :3
Sunday, October 24, 2010
The peak of stupidity, or too smart for my own good?
So, earlier tonight was the first match of this season in ETF2L. Right before I was supposed to start TF2, my steam crashed. No biggie, happens from time to time. However, when I started steam again, I was asked to enter my password.
It was a fucking disaster. I HAD FORGOTTEN MY OWN FUCKING PASSWORD TO THE MOST IMPORTANT PROGRAM ON MY COMPUTER!
So the question is. Am I so smart, that I made a password so hard, that not even I can remember / crack it? Or am I just so stupid that I have a password that is so obvious, that I am just not thinking about it?
Well, I guess I'll just have to sit here and contemplate over my massive fail and drown my tears in zombie blood (playing Dead Rising 2.. OH GOD I LOVE THIS GAME).
Untill next time:
HURR DURR MAH NAEM EXXEH AN I 4GET MAH PASWURD LAWL
It was a fucking disaster. I HAD FORGOTTEN MY OWN FUCKING PASSWORD TO THE MOST IMPORTANT PROGRAM ON MY COMPUTER!
So the question is. Am I so smart, that I made a password so hard, that not even I can remember / crack it? Or am I just so stupid that I have a password that is so obvious, that I am just not thinking about it?
Well, I guess I'll just have to sit here and contemplate over my massive fail and drown my tears in zombie blood (playing Dead Rising 2.. OH GOD I LOVE THIS GAME).
Untill next time:
HURR DURR MAH NAEM EXXEH AN I 4GET MAH PASWURD LAWL
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Exxy Reviews: Medal of Honor
I come to you today with both joy and sadness in my little gaming heart. A gaming series that I have always liked has taken the step towards being another "Call of Duty killer". But is that really a step in the right direction? That will be the goal of my review today; To prove if Medal of Honor does kill off the Call of Duty franchise.
I'm gonna split this review in two, one for multi-player, and one for single-player. The reason I do this, is because it feels like two COMPLETELY different games when it comes to MP and SP. So here we go!
Single-player:
Just like the Call of Duty series have done so far, the game splits up it's story between different characters. As I haven't finished the game completely, I can't say an exact number of how many characters you get to play, but so far I have played 3. Rabbit, Deuce, and Adams. Before we go any further, I would like to show you a picture of Deuce's partner in crime for the most part when you play him; Dusty.
Look at that sexy mother fucker. Viking beard and everything.
Anyways. The story that I've experienced so far is actually quite good. It's a bit rough in the edges and feels a bit like it's trying to knock off every major modern war movie (e.g. Black Hawk Down / Jarhead) but doesn't do it to such a degree that you feel that you want to turn the game off. You also have to remember that Allied Assault (the first Medal of Honor to be realeased for PC) pretty much ripped off the entire beach landing scene from Saving Private Ryan.
However, the thing that makes me like the single player alot is the way that the game handles and the nifty little features you find here and there. I'll give you a couple of examples:
- When sprinting towards cover and pressing the crouch key, your character SLIDES towards cover, making it easier to rush for cover in busy firefights.
- The aim-help isn't annoying like it's been in other FPS's that I've played for the console. It's actually helpful in this game.
- You have a lean button. I CANNOT PUSH THIS ENOUGH: GAMES NEED LEAN BUTTONS. This for the simple reason that no one (unless they have a death wish) puts their entire body out around a corner to have a peek.
How about AI? Well, I've been playing it on the "Normal" difficulty, and I must say that the AI is really well made. There are some parts where the AI has bugged out, but it's not "Walk-into-walls-hurr-durr"-stupid like the AI in Call of Duty has proven to be sometimes. They line up their shots and they do react to sounds if you fuck up and slip off a small edge. So the AI lives up to it's purpose.
I know this is only a rough review, but as I said, I haven't finished the single player, so I might give some additional comments in a future post about that.
Multi-player:
Alright, here comes the part that made me a little sad but happy at the same time.
The game was hyped up to be the "Potential Modern Warfare 2 killer!". With a goal like that to live up to, the game really needs to deliver and be original. However, the game isn't original in it's multiplayer. It's Bad Company 2 with killstreaks. This made me both sad and happy. Sad in the way that it's not original, creative or new. HOWEVER! I fucking love Bad Company 2, so the multi-player is really fucking awesome from my point of view when it comes to gameplay.
You have 5 modes to play:
Team Assault - Team Deathmatch pretty much.
Objective Raid - This is like a mix of Rush from Bad Company 2 and Search & Destroy from Modern Warfare 2. One team has to destroy two targets while the other team has to prevent this from happening.
Combat Mission - This is a gamemode I never really liked. It reminds me a bit of assault from Unreal Tournament. Get a series of points to push the defending team back.
Sector Control - This is just like Conquer from Bad Company 2 or Domination from Modern Warfare 2. Control a point, get points while it's controlled, reach the pointlimit to win.
Hardcore - This mixes a few of the game modes and makes the game retardedly realistic. Get hit once and you're dead. This is for those who, like the title says, are hardcore.
However, I must say that I really like that you can focus on the type of weapon you want to level. If you prefer SMG's, level Special Ops. If you prefer Rifles, level Rifleman etc. So that is a BIG plus in my oppinion.
When it comes to maps, I think most of them are good, but I feel that some maps are opted towards one faction depending on game mode. So it's a little balance issue I feel, but hopefully it gets fixed in a minor patch or something.
Verdict:
Alright, time to sum this up.
If you like Bad Company 2 and really love warmovies, this game is completely fucking awesome for you. The gameplay is nice, the game itself is nice, the only downside being that it's overhyped in the way that it's a MW2-killer.
So my verdict is:
8/10 - Defo not a shit game, but could've done with some minor balance fixes in multi-player. The single player delivers quite well, and the AI is some of the better I've seen in a fps so far.
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Stay tuned for more reviews in the future.
You've just been review'd!
Signed, Exxy
I'm gonna split this review in two, one for multi-player, and one for single-player. The reason I do this, is because it feels like two COMPLETELY different games when it comes to MP and SP. So here we go!
Single-player:
Just like the Call of Duty series have done so far, the game splits up it's story between different characters. As I haven't finished the game completely, I can't say an exact number of how many characters you get to play, but so far I have played 3. Rabbit, Deuce, and Adams. Before we go any further, I would like to show you a picture of Deuce's partner in crime for the most part when you play him; Dusty.
Look at that sexy mother fucker. Viking beard and everything.
Anyways. The story that I've experienced so far is actually quite good. It's a bit rough in the edges and feels a bit like it's trying to knock off every major modern war movie (e.g. Black Hawk Down / Jarhead) but doesn't do it to such a degree that you feel that you want to turn the game off. You also have to remember that Allied Assault (the first Medal of Honor to be realeased for PC) pretty much ripped off the entire beach landing scene from Saving Private Ryan.
However, the thing that makes me like the single player alot is the way that the game handles and the nifty little features you find here and there. I'll give you a couple of examples:
- When sprinting towards cover and pressing the crouch key, your character SLIDES towards cover, making it easier to rush for cover in busy firefights.
- The aim-help isn't annoying like it's been in other FPS's that I've played for the console. It's actually helpful in this game.
- You have a lean button. I CANNOT PUSH THIS ENOUGH: GAMES NEED LEAN BUTTONS. This for the simple reason that no one (unless they have a death wish) puts their entire body out around a corner to have a peek.
How about AI? Well, I've been playing it on the "Normal" difficulty, and I must say that the AI is really well made. There are some parts where the AI has bugged out, but it's not "Walk-into-walls-hurr-durr"-stupid like the AI in Call of Duty has proven to be sometimes. They line up their shots and they do react to sounds if you fuck up and slip off a small edge. So the AI lives up to it's purpose.
I know this is only a rough review, but as I said, I haven't finished the single player, so I might give some additional comments in a future post about that.
Multi-player:
Alright, here comes the part that made me a little sad but happy at the same time.
The game was hyped up to be the "Potential Modern Warfare 2 killer!". With a goal like that to live up to, the game really needs to deliver and be original. However, the game isn't original in it's multiplayer. It's Bad Company 2 with killstreaks. This made me both sad and happy. Sad in the way that it's not original, creative or new. HOWEVER! I fucking love Bad Company 2, so the multi-player is really fucking awesome from my point of view when it comes to gameplay.
You have 5 modes to play:
Team Assault - Team Deathmatch pretty much.
Objective Raid - This is like a mix of Rush from Bad Company 2 and Search & Destroy from Modern Warfare 2. One team has to destroy two targets while the other team has to prevent this from happening.
Combat Mission - This is a gamemode I never really liked. It reminds me a bit of assault from Unreal Tournament. Get a series of points to push the defending team back.
Sector Control - This is just like Conquer from Bad Company 2 or Domination from Modern Warfare 2. Control a point, get points while it's controlled, reach the pointlimit to win.
Hardcore - This mixes a few of the game modes and makes the game retardedly realistic. Get hit once and you're dead. This is for those who, like the title says, are hardcore.
However, I must say that I really like that you can focus on the type of weapon you want to level. If you prefer SMG's, level Special Ops. If you prefer Rifles, level Rifleman etc. So that is a BIG plus in my oppinion.
When it comes to maps, I think most of them are good, but I feel that some maps are opted towards one faction depending on game mode. So it's a little balance issue I feel, but hopefully it gets fixed in a minor patch or something.
Verdict:
Alright, time to sum this up.
If you like Bad Company 2 and really love warmovies, this game is completely fucking awesome for you. The gameplay is nice, the game itself is nice, the only downside being that it's overhyped in the way that it's a MW2-killer.
So my verdict is:
8/10 - Defo not a shit game, but could've done with some minor balance fixes in multi-player. The single player delivers quite well, and the AI is some of the better I've seen in a fps so far.
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Stay tuned for more reviews in the future.
You've just been review'd!
Signed, Exxy
Friday, October 22, 2010
How the fuck do people do that?
By the title, I mean exercise. Fucking hell, I ran a bit today in a movie me and my friend Niclas made, and with the cold I have I felt like I was gonna fucking die. Lack of breath, constant coughing, and a clogged up nose did not really fucking help.
So apart from the whole "Exxy has no physical stamina what so fucking ever", today has been an awesome day. Let's take it by schedule, shall we?
9 AM - Wake up
10 AM - Starting to REALLY wake up, post a blogpost about it (I'm sad, I know).
12 PM - Niclas calls me and tells me to get ready.
12:30 PM - Niclas arrives, we do some random chit chat and start planning.
2:30 PM - Almost all scenes are done, and we decide to get something to eat. While we're eating, the third guy from our moviegroup (http://www.varningfornoje.se/ <--- Shameless plug) shows up, and joins us while me and Niclas finish our food.
4:30 PM - Start filming the last scenes.
5:30 PM - Finished and Niclas extracts the clips while we play abit of Blur.
6 PM - I decide, as the good loser of Blur I am, to go buy some chocolate milk (Yes, chocolate milk, fuck you), cookies and other pasteries to share with the victorious Niclas.
8 PM - The raw editing of the movie is done, and we decide to start sketching up some characters for a roleplay (board game, not live or video game) that we're doing, to have as reserves.
9 PM - I call a cab and order it to pick me up at 11 PM.
9:05 PM - Niclas puts on the Dropkick Murphy's Live in Boston DVD.
10 PM - My mind is starting to get blown from the mixture of Niclas' stories and the DVD.
10:45 PM - My mind is blown, and I start to pack my shit up to go home.
11 PM - I go home
The rest of the evening was spent playing League of Legends and reading facebook message after facebook message about it snowing.
Yes.. we got snow.. in the end of October. And not just a little bullshit snow that will be gone in the morning. Oh no, we're catching up with fucking Greenland in ammounts of snow at the moment.
But here's the thing.
I FUCKING LOVE SNOW. When the first snow falls, I get all happy and warm, and there is a story behind that, however, it would make this post into a fucking novel, so I'll save it for tomorrow or something.
Anyway, time to do my annual "First snow of the winter" tradition;
Walk in the snow, with Linkin Parks "My December" on repeat for an hour.
I'll fill you in on all the details and backstories tomorrow.
I'm off into the snow.
Farewell.
Signed, Exxy.
So apart from the whole "Exxy has no physical stamina what so fucking ever", today has been an awesome day. Let's take it by schedule, shall we?
9 AM - Wake up
10 AM - Starting to REALLY wake up, post a blogpost about it (I'm sad, I know).
12 PM - Niclas calls me and tells me to get ready.
12:30 PM - Niclas arrives, we do some random chit chat and start planning.
2:30 PM - Almost all scenes are done, and we decide to get something to eat. While we're eating, the third guy from our moviegroup (http://www.varningfornoje.se/ <--- Shameless plug) shows up, and joins us while me and Niclas finish our food.
4:30 PM - Start filming the last scenes.
5:30 PM - Finished and Niclas extracts the clips while we play abit of Blur.
6 PM - I decide, as the good loser of Blur I am, to go buy some chocolate milk (Yes, chocolate milk, fuck you), cookies and other pasteries to share with the victorious Niclas.
8 PM - The raw editing of the movie is done, and we decide to start sketching up some characters for a roleplay (board game, not live or video game) that we're doing, to have as reserves.
9 PM - I call a cab and order it to pick me up at 11 PM.
9:05 PM - Niclas puts on the Dropkick Murphy's Live in Boston DVD.
10 PM - My mind is starting to get blown from the mixture of Niclas' stories and the DVD.
10:45 PM - My mind is blown, and I start to pack my shit up to go home.
11 PM - I go home
The rest of the evening was spent playing League of Legends and reading facebook message after facebook message about it snowing.
Yes.. we got snow.. in the end of October. And not just a little bullshit snow that will be gone in the morning. Oh no, we're catching up with fucking Greenland in ammounts of snow at the moment.
But here's the thing.
I FUCKING LOVE SNOW. When the first snow falls, I get all happy and warm, and there is a story behind that, however, it would make this post into a fucking novel, so I'll save it for tomorrow or something.
Anyway, time to do my annual "First snow of the winter" tradition;
Walk in the snow, with Linkin Parks "My December" on repeat for an hour.
I'll fill you in on all the details and backstories tomorrow.
I'm off into the snow.
Farewell.
Signed, Exxy.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
What is this, I don't even...
As I sit here, drinking my morning dose of chocolate milk (Yes, chocolate milk, fuck you), I keep peeking over at the clock on the computer and saying out loud to myself:
"WHY THE FUCK AM I UP NOW!? I didn't even know there was a 9 in the AM anymore."
Well, friends, I actually have to take responsibility for once and be up early since I promised my friend Niclas that I would be up and ready at 12 so he and I could get some filming done today. So thus, I am up at this hour, however, I would not say that I am awake. I will now introduce you to my 3 stages of waking up.
1. The "What the fuck is going on?"-phase.
This phase starts out with the whole sleeping thing coming to an end. As I said earlier, I'm not awake, but I am up in the sense of that I'm not asleep. During this phase, I have a tendency to do some things that I in later phases start questioning. For example, this morning I was so tired that I put on my shorts backwards and wore a t-shirt inside out without noticing. I then proceeded to head out to the kitchen for my medication (still on antibiotics for the ear infection) and a glass of water. This is where phase two kicks in.
2. The "Routines are golden"-phase.
During this phase, I start mentally waking up. Untill now, my body has been up and walking, but my mind has been sleeping in a few more minutes. However, this is where my brain goes into phase 1 and starts questioning my body's choices from the first phase. I notice the fucking retarded appearance of my clothes, I notice that spotify is running music I never listen to normally, and that I am surfing around on homepages with little to no interest to me.
This is where my brain tells my body to just stay the fuck in bed untill my brain has fully woken up and can take control, and this leads us to phase 3.
3. The "Realisation"-phase.
This phase is where I properly wake up, and the phase that I am currently moving into at a really slow pace. This is where my choice of dress has started looking acceptable, my food and drink intake has become reasonable, and the music I listen to become more acceptable. This is also the phase where I start doing stuff that I am usually doing, such as play games, write scripts or waste my time browsing facebook/YouTube/FZ/LoL-forums etc. For example, at the moment I am contemplating playing some Medal of Honor on the PS3, or playing some League of Legends while continuing to enjoy my durrent choice of Drum'n'Bass slowly destroying my ears due to high volume.
Those are my three phases of waking up, however, some days it feels like my brain just doesn't wake up and I end up going through my day in phase 2 but my brain just staying in bed, mumbling viciously at my body when it does things my brain doesn't agree with.
Well, I am now out of chocolate milk and I need to aquire more before I feel that I need a nap.
So 'til next time;
Don't get run over!
Signed, Exxy.
"WHY THE FUCK AM I UP NOW!? I didn't even know there was a 9 in the AM anymore."
Well, friends, I actually have to take responsibility for once and be up early since I promised my friend Niclas that I would be up and ready at 12 so he and I could get some filming done today. So thus, I am up at this hour, however, I would not say that I am awake. I will now introduce you to my 3 stages of waking up.
1. The "What the fuck is going on?"-phase.
This phase starts out with the whole sleeping thing coming to an end. As I said earlier, I'm not awake, but I am up in the sense of that I'm not asleep. During this phase, I have a tendency to do some things that I in later phases start questioning. For example, this morning I was so tired that I put on my shorts backwards and wore a t-shirt inside out without noticing. I then proceeded to head out to the kitchen for my medication (still on antibiotics for the ear infection) and a glass of water. This is where phase two kicks in.
2. The "Routines are golden"-phase.
During this phase, I start mentally waking up. Untill now, my body has been up and walking, but my mind has been sleeping in a few more minutes. However, this is where my brain goes into phase 1 and starts questioning my body's choices from the first phase. I notice the fucking retarded appearance of my clothes, I notice that spotify is running music I never listen to normally, and that I am surfing around on homepages with little to no interest to me.
This is where my brain tells my body to just stay the fuck in bed untill my brain has fully woken up and can take control, and this leads us to phase 3.
3. The "Realisation"-phase.
This phase is where I properly wake up, and the phase that I am currently moving into at a really slow pace. This is where my choice of dress has started looking acceptable, my food and drink intake has become reasonable, and the music I listen to become more acceptable. This is also the phase where I start doing stuff that I am usually doing, such as play games, write scripts or waste my time browsing facebook/YouTube/FZ/LoL-forums etc. For example, at the moment I am contemplating playing some Medal of Honor on the PS3, or playing some League of Legends while continuing to enjoy my durrent choice of Drum'n'Bass slowly destroying my ears due to high volume.
Those are my three phases of waking up, however, some days it feels like my brain just doesn't wake up and I end up going through my day in phase 2 but my brain just staying in bed, mumbling viciously at my body when it does things my brain doesn't agree with.
Well, I am now out of chocolate milk and I need to aquire more before I feel that I need a nap.
So 'til next time;
Don't get run over!
Signed, Exxy.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Fuck you, Swedish healthcare system!
Alright, here it is, the first segment of "Fuck you, X!". My first target will be the Swedish healthcare system, this due to the fact that I don't want to go on a full on rage the first time around. This is more an annoyance about the way patients get treated at _MY LOCAL HOSPITAL_, so I cannot stand for if it is like this all over Sweden, but it's how it is here in town.
Let me tell you a story, so you get a perspective of how my annoyance/light hatred for the lokal hospital came about.
Last tuesday, I had to visit the emergency room due to a sudden loss of hearing on my left ear. I knew the reason why it had happened, and I knew that we had to seek medical attention immediatly. The reason was an ear infection that I have had on and off for the past 3 years, and this time it went so far that one of the infected areas spread to my ear drum and I was completely deafened on one ear.
ANYWAYS, we got ready and went up to the hospital. I get the feeling that they are going to tell me "No, we can't help you tonight, you have to come back tomorrow." But I was preparing to take that fight.
We walk into the emergency room and tell the nurse at the front desk what had happened and told her exactly what needed to be done and that it had to be done fast in order for it to not get worse. She instantly looked at me with a skeptical look and said: "Well, I think you will have to come back tomorrow, we can't really..."
That's where I interuppted her and went into a small rage.
"I knew you were going to say that, so let me counter with this. If we go home, and this gets worse, I will hold you accountable for my lack of hearing, and I will personally make sure that YOU get to pay every single pill that I will need to take during recovery. I work for the same union as you, so I know my god damn rights, and I know what you are allowed to and not allowed to do."
She then proceeded to quickly go talk to a doctor, came back, and told me to wait in the waiting room and said that the doctor will be with us as soon as he can, but it will take a while. I thank her and walk into the waiting room, feeling her eyes looking at me as I walked away.
Then came the fun part. 2 GOD FUCKING DAMN HOURS of doing fuck all and waiting for the doctor. As far as I could see, I was the only fucking patient there apart from an old dude walking back and forth in the halls. I later got to understand that they had ONE.. ONE FUCKING DOCTOR working that night. That's just not acceptable in my eyes.
Luckily, the doctor working was a doctor I had encountered several times before when visiting for the ear infections, but also the doctor that made sure I could get my appendix removed when it was infected, so I had full trust in this guy. 5 minutes after the examination, we got the antibiotics needed, prescription to some ear drops, and everyone was happy.
Now, the rant part of this will be the fact that an emergency room pretty much tells its patients to go home and come back when "they can deal with it". This really sickens me (no pun intended). I mean, what if they would've had two really urgent and serious patients at the same time? Would they just ship one home and say "Come back in the morning when we can deal with you."?
So a big "FUCK YOU!" to the Swedish Healthcare system for cutting down on staff, but a big "FUCKING THANKS, MAN!" to the doctor that made sure I got everything I needed really quick after I was examined.
(Might add that I now have my hearing back, and the infection is almost completely gone.)
I will now relax, drink my chocolate milk (Yes, chocolate milk, fuck you.), and enjoy my music untill Jonny, Adam, Sarah and maybe Nick wants to play some League of Legends.
Smell you later.
Signed, Exxy.
Let me tell you a story, so you get a perspective of how my annoyance/light hatred for the lokal hospital came about.
Last tuesday, I had to visit the emergency room due to a sudden loss of hearing on my left ear. I knew the reason why it had happened, and I knew that we had to seek medical attention immediatly. The reason was an ear infection that I have had on and off for the past 3 years, and this time it went so far that one of the infected areas spread to my ear drum and I was completely deafened on one ear.
ANYWAYS, we got ready and went up to the hospital. I get the feeling that they are going to tell me "No, we can't help you tonight, you have to come back tomorrow." But I was preparing to take that fight.
We walk into the emergency room and tell the nurse at the front desk what had happened and told her exactly what needed to be done and that it had to be done fast in order for it to not get worse. She instantly looked at me with a skeptical look and said: "Well, I think you will have to come back tomorrow, we can't really..."
That's where I interuppted her and went into a small rage.
"I knew you were going to say that, so let me counter with this. If we go home, and this gets worse, I will hold you accountable for my lack of hearing, and I will personally make sure that YOU get to pay every single pill that I will need to take during recovery. I work for the same union as you, so I know my god damn rights, and I know what you are allowed to and not allowed to do."
She then proceeded to quickly go talk to a doctor, came back, and told me to wait in the waiting room and said that the doctor will be with us as soon as he can, but it will take a while. I thank her and walk into the waiting room, feeling her eyes looking at me as I walked away.
Then came the fun part. 2 GOD FUCKING DAMN HOURS of doing fuck all and waiting for the doctor. As far as I could see, I was the only fucking patient there apart from an old dude walking back and forth in the halls. I later got to understand that they had ONE.. ONE FUCKING DOCTOR working that night. That's just not acceptable in my eyes.
Luckily, the doctor working was a doctor I had encountered several times before when visiting for the ear infections, but also the doctor that made sure I could get my appendix removed when it was infected, so I had full trust in this guy. 5 minutes after the examination, we got the antibiotics needed, prescription to some ear drops, and everyone was happy.
Now, the rant part of this will be the fact that an emergency room pretty much tells its patients to go home and come back when "they can deal with it". This really sickens me (no pun intended). I mean, what if they would've had two really urgent and serious patients at the same time? Would they just ship one home and say "Come back in the morning when we can deal with you."?
So a big "FUCK YOU!" to the Swedish Healthcare system for cutting down on staff, but a big "FUCKING THANKS, MAN!" to the doctor that made sure I got everything I needed really quick after I was examined.
(Might add that I now have my hearing back, and the infection is almost completely gone.)
I will now relax, drink my chocolate milk (Yes, chocolate milk, fuck you.), and enjoy my music untill Jonny, Adam, Sarah and maybe Nick wants to play some League of Legends.
Smell you later.
Signed, Exxy.
So, here we are again.
But this time, I won't drop it after a few weeks of blogging, as this will be about EVERYTHING, and not aimed at something special in my life.
So, I bid you welcome to:
Exxy's tripple R. The R's standing for Rants, Ramblings and Reviews!
In this blog, you'll see everything from gaming, movies, music to politics, news and other real shit. I will have different "Segments" that will come back from time to time.
The first one will be coming directly after this post, and will be called "Fuck you, X" and will be a rant/rambling about a company/person/establishment that I don't agree with or highly dislike. I have a feeling this will mostly be aimed towards games and gaming companies, but I will force myself to not ONLY make it gaming related. Other segments I will have are "Exxy reviews" and a thing I've done on facebook the past week, which will be transfered here, and I call it: "People, You need X in your life." This as so far been mostly aimed at music, but will probably just be shameless plugs for stuff that I really like across the internet and world in general.
I will also have this thing later on (was planning later this week) where I will answer your question. I will do almost any question, with exceptions for really fucked up shit. Warning though: Retarded questions will get retarded answers. You have been warned.
Again, Welcome to my little world.
May the forces of evil become confused on their way to your house.
(Bonus points for whoever can pinpoint where this is taken from)
Signed, Exxy.
So, I bid you welcome to:
Exxy's tripple R. The R's standing for Rants, Ramblings and Reviews!
In this blog, you'll see everything from gaming, movies, music to politics, news and other real shit. I will have different "Segments" that will come back from time to time.
The first one will be coming directly after this post, and will be called "Fuck you, X" and will be a rant/rambling about a company/person/establishment that I don't agree with or highly dislike. I have a feeling this will mostly be aimed towards games and gaming companies, but I will force myself to not ONLY make it gaming related. Other segments I will have are "Exxy reviews" and a thing I've done on facebook the past week, which will be transfered here, and I call it: "People, You need X in your life." This as so far been mostly aimed at music, but will probably just be shameless plugs for stuff that I really like across the internet and world in general.
I will also have this thing later on (was planning later this week) where I will answer your question. I will do almost any question, with exceptions for really fucked up shit. Warning though: Retarded questions will get retarded answers. You have been warned.
Again, Welcome to my little world.
May the forces of evil become confused on their way to your house.
(Bonus points for whoever can pinpoint where this is taken from)
Signed, Exxy.
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